Rant about the real world

So I recently graduated college and here are my feelings about that:

What the fuck am I doing?

Guess I should keep applying to jobs.

NO ONE WILL EVER HIRE ME I SHOULD JUST WORK AT WENDYS

It's still appropriate to get drunk right?

Wait, why was I so anxious to get out of college?

Being a grown up sucks.

Whatever I'm not officially an adult until August.

Everything will be okay.

NO IT WONT.

That is the order of my thoughts about graduating and that happens about everyday. I know others feel the same way I do and it is scary for everyone but damn, I did not realize I would be having a panic attack every other day about what I'm going to do with my life. It is somewhat sad that we are expected to know what we want to do at the age of 22 or in my case 21. Honestly, I can't even decide what I want for breakfast let alone what I want for my future.

And another thing, I love my mom to death but damn I am way too used to not having any rules that living with her is hard. I miss being an irresponsible not yet adult that could get away with a lot of shenanigans.

After a night of fun and alcohol my friend Erika and I stopped at starbucks before I took her home and I'm not lying when I say we looked like we had a rough night, our hair wasn't even brushed. It was then that we sat waiting for our drinks and watching everyone in their business attire that we realized this was soon to be our lives. A horrible realization that we are trying to block out of our minds for at least a few more months.

To all the youngins out there...growing up kinda sucks, stay in college forever!